Hello beautiful humans, good morning!
Sometimes I like to take time and reflect back on the things I’ve been through in life; how far I’ve come and what direction I would like for my life to go in. I realize I’ve grown so much in the past few years.
When I was younger, I was somewhat of a drama queen and overly dramatic. I would blow small things out of proportion and now I am so much more relaxed. I don’t let things get to me so easily and I take more time to breathe.
I was married for what I think was along time. I married the first man I truly loved (at the time ) we were married on paper for about 8 years. Our divorce devastated me. I lost so much weight and was depressed and I felt like my whole world was falling apart. For years it was difficult for me to talk to him. I felt abandon, ashamed, and embarrassed by him and what he did to me. Those are things it takes time to get over. Well, I did or so I thought I did until I saw his Instagram page.
I made the mistake of looking through his pictures and reading his captions. It was like I never existed. What I mean when I say it was like I never existed, he had pictures of him and his wife posted from high school and the caption read, “We’ve been together since high school!” And another read something like, “She’s been my soldier since I was in my teens!” It was like I never existed. It was like he had forgotten the almost 10 years we were together.
The man I was married to for almost 8 years acted as if those years with me never happened. I was beyond devastated it was like being heartbroken and shattered all over again. It’s funny how it takes you so many years to heal and so little time to be shattered and heartbroken all over again!
After I saw his page and read the caption I immediately unfollowed and blocked him on Instagram. I also sent him a message and said since he wanted to act like I never existed on his Instagram page he could also pretend that I didn’t exist in real life! I was so furious and I just couldn’t believe his page.
As time passed by (I still haven’t talked to him); I realized his page doesn’t matter. I’m not his wife anymore; he’s remarried with children and he’s honoring his new wife and his kids. And he doesn’t, nor should he ever have power again to make me angry or hurt me. Our marriage was then and we are in the now!
Quite frankly now, I don’t care anymore. My only focus is myself, my happiness, my future, and doing things that matter! The past is the past for a reason and we can never move forward by looking in or keep living in the past. I am an older wiser woman and I know life is about moving forward. Being positive. Doing things that matter! #goodvibesonly
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